Well, life's just different now.
Go back to '09.
The Cubs finish in 2nd behind the Cardinals with 83 wins, but we all knew Jim Hendry had screwed the pooch with the whole Milton Bradley/we-can-fix-everything-if-we-hit-left-handed mess, and change was in order.
New ownership came with the Ricketts, and they had to feel their way into the Bigs.
And 7 years went by where the Cubs were either losing because they sucked or losing by design.
I hadn't realized the toll that took - the sort of dulling of one's Cub Fan Senses over the years.
The other day, the Cardinals swept the 2015 Cubs, and there was a depth to that hurt I'd just forgotten about.
I'm not talking about the hate for other teams - and of course the Cubs/Cards rivalry never stops.
But it had turned into the kind of thing where the Cards would win and you'd just think well it doesn't really matter - the Cubs are rebuilding yada yada.
It's so different now.
Took me by surprise is all.
While the sweep was painful, it's nice to be back here in the real world.